I haven't posted in awhile. I think mostly because life was just too crazy and sometimes even miserable.   Two of The Littles returned home a little over a week ago.  Although I am certain that they didn't return to a safe environment I have to admit I was glad to see them go.  The past six months have been beyond crazy.  Batman and Peanut were a lot to handle on a daily basis.  It's so sad that such little, inocent children can be so transformed due to parental neglect.  Most days I woke up to Batman screaming at the top of his lungs because he didn't want to get dressed (or some other menial request.)  The day then progressed with fighting, whining, complaining, crying, screaming and tantrums.  As soon as Batman started to calm down a bit Peanut came out of her shell and really gave a new meaning to the "terrible twos."  Again I know they are just children but dealing with them day in and day out was traumatizing for me.

In the end the judge decided they could return to their parents but she didn't feel confident that they were ready to parent Mr. M due to his special needs.  I'm not sure how that works, sending two home but not the third.  Needless to say we are thrilled that he is going to remain in care at least until January's next court date.  For him that means 3 more months of therapy where he will continue to thrive.  Life at our home has calmed down considerably and I am enjoying spending my days with Mr. M.

He is almost 11 months old and has made so many gains in the last 6, almost 7 months.  He is a beautiful baby and such a joy to love on.  I really don't think his parents are ever going to be able to provide for his needs the way he deserves but our system is one that favors birthparent rights to the detrament of children.  At some point I'm going to put all my thoughts on the system into writing, people need to know what is happening in our state.  It's so beyond broken I believe it's criminal.

Our foster care journey continues to move forward never knowing the whens or how's or whys.  It's a journey that has so many forks in the road and most of the time the direction isn't clear.   We will continue to navigate this adventure with the Lord as our pilot knowing that even when a system is so broken he is the one who is in control and each of these children are His.